I’M melinda

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For most of my adult life, I led a desperate, fractured existence. Years of health and family struggles had taken their toll.

i looked perfectly healthy, but my body was often racked with pain from a host of autoimmune disorders.  And my soul and spirit had suffered blows that i increasingly did not have the power to bounce back from.

Several years ago, during a very difficult stretch in my health journey, God had brought me to a point where I realized He was my only Hope. I began to quit looking for a result and began to cling to my Redeemer. And I believe He smiled and said, Finally, Child. Now I have something to work with.

Jesus began to open my eyes to my Father’s sweetness and goodness to me even in the midst of my pain. Mercifully, the first cracks began to form in the legalistic, demanding view of God that I’d grown up with. I didn’t understand why God allowed me to suffer, but I was beginning to believe He was good.

I began to let go of what i thought my life should look like in ministry, in family, parenting, marriage, health. Jesus began to show me how to choose to trust and follow Him step by step. It felt good. But I still clung tightly to my incredibly unhealthy relationship with God.

"My belief in God's goodness was only head knowledge.
It hadn't made its way
to my heart."

A little more than a year later, another stretch of physical brokenness brought me to my knees.

This time, God wanted to meet me there and smash what remained of the barrier of fear and legalism that stood between us.

I believed Jesus loved me. He had always seemed approachable. But although I had seen glimpses of my Father’s love, I struggled to believe that He could ever truly be pleased with me. My belief in GOD’s goodness was only head knowledge. It hadn’t make its way to my heart.

During this latest season of brokenness, God began to reveal Himself to me in a way I had never experienced Him before. I said, “Oh, my goodness, if this is who You really are, I want more of this. i want more of YOU.”

Slowly, He began to lead me away from so many other things that were clogging my heart and mind. I felt a level of joy, peace and freedom that i had never experienced before.

One day I felt God say to my heart, You’re having so much joy because you’re serving the REAL God. You’re no longer serving the false god of performance. The closer you get to the real Me, the more you are experiencing joy, grace, love, peace, freedom. I don’t just give you those things. I AM those things.

 

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"I prayed out loud right then and there that God would break the bondage that had held my family hostage for so long."

Not long after, God led me to a journal that my great-aunt had written to memorialize the life of her sister — my grandmother — who died at the age of 26.

My mother told me that her death followed a surgery meant to fix damage caused by multiple abortions. As I read this journal — one I had found years ago and stuck in a box unread — I discovered that my grandmother underwent surgery “to correct the bladder problem that had bothered her since childbirth.” Days later, an embolism went to her heart and killed her.

The words “bladder problem that had bothered her since childbirth” jumped off the page in neon. My first physical symptoms of sickness started in the hospital shortly after the birth of my first child. In fact, I found out many years later that the trauma of childbirth flipped a genetic switch in my body that caused a host of autoimmune disorders, starting with a tormenting and painful bladder condition called interstitial cystitis.

As I read that journal, God clearly said to my heart, “Satan has been attacking life in your family for generations. What he used to destroy your grandmother, I am using to draw you to Me and heal you. You know the real Me now. You pray in the power of the real God to break this generational bondage.”

I prayed out loud right then and there that God would break the bondage that had held my family hostage for so long. He opened my eyes to the long history of Satan’s attack on life in the women in my family — infertility, abortions, endometriosis, near miscarriages, ovarian cancer, early hysterectomies. God was breaking it! I woke up the next morning and the first thing in my head, before I was fully awake, was the thought, You are a new creation.

She hugged me and said, "You look young and beautiful
and new."

On my way to church that morning, I thought about how I had been feeling better the last couple of months. My migraines had slowly gone away. My need for thyroid medication was slowly decreasing. But for the first time, I got it. He was healing me physically, as well as spiritually. I am a new creation!

I pulled into the church parking lot and wanted to tell someone as soon as possible. Someone who would truly “get” the significance of this amazing realization I had just made.

This feeling of exuberance was a stark contrast to four years ago, when I went to church physically and spiritually broken. At that time, few people knew I struggled so much physically.

One morning back then, I ran into Sandy, a sweet woman i hadn’t seen in months. She was wearing a halo brace after a difficult spinal surgery. God sent this “angel” with a halo to ask me how I was doing. i broke down and for the first time, shared my struggle. Amazingly, she said she had the same rare autoimmune condition and God healed her. She said with absolute conviction: “I believe He is going to heal you too.”

Who was the first person i ran into that day I realized I was being healed? That’s right: Sandy. The first person who spoke healing over me was the first person GOD put in my path to share that I was being healed. She hugged me and said, “You look young and beautiful and new.” 

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the journey continues

Healing is an ongoing process, a journey toward wholeness that I am still on. Yet I am not who I was. He is remaking me. He continues to detox me physically, emotionally and spiritually. Peel layers of toxicity in my mind, body and heart. 

Freedom doesn’t just happen to us. It is a condition we have to claim every moment. Everyday. No matter how we feel. No matter what our circumstances tell us. Walking it out is sometimes excruciatingly difficult. It’s painful when toxins — both spiritual and physical — leave our bodies, minds, and hearts. However, He has assured me that any pain now is an indication of my healing, not my sickness. They are life pangs, not death pangs. God doesn’t just give life. He is Life. It took time for me to truly find Him, but the healing and wholeness I’d always wanted had been there all along. He was nothing like I thought He would be, and better than anything I had ever imagined.

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